this is a period of trial. and everyone's coping with it the best they can. evan typed a crazy atypical blog, qiuling expressed irritation with someone and i got unreasonable with gen. i dunno what happened. i didn't even realise it till gen asked "what's wrong with you? angry with me today ar?" then i felt guilty. haiz. didn't mean to be so grouchy.sorry gen. =)

10 days left to prelims? hmm wanna do something to salvage my slacking situation but then i know it's kinda fruitless. oh well. cheer up and buck up. determination is all i need.

i'm a person who is easily affected by the people or state of things around me. and i dun like it. feels like i dun have a fixed mind of my own. haiz. perhaps i'm just too kiasee to stick up for my own decision. i dun like going back and forth on one decision. but i often do it, only to further agonise myself. haiz. what the hell am i doing? dunno myself anymore..

we travel to lose ourselves, and subsequently, to find ourselves. feel so much like travelling now. anywhere would be ok.